What i miss....

This morning after my breakfast as I lay on the bed watching tv... i start to remember how I feel before I doze off last night - I start to remember things...I think one will find one tries to remember things...Just thinking...I start to remember the weekends morning where we drive to eat prata... It's not just the memories of what we did...but I was trying to remember how I felt then....your each expression, your each word... Those are what is going to accompany me now. And sometimes I panic when I can't seem to remember... can't remember the feelings that comes with the memory.


What do I exactly feel now? I don't really feel homesick ..yet. Cause if I do now, I think things are going to be tough for me. For me now, I see only how 1 week pass then at the end of the week, I will feel more relieved that there is less 1 week to go till 6th April.
Anticipation is good but too much will only build up for a disappointment. I felt that I am trying to empty my brain. You know, just get to the routine and refusing to spend time thinking. It doesn't help when the work is not that indulging. TV at night is getting abit boring.
Life here is not very different from life in SG when I come to think about it. I don't go Orchard very often either so its not the shopping. I miss being together with you. I miss being understood. I miss being naughty with you. I miss talking rubbish with you.

I'm socialising more than when I was in SG. So in a way, I don't think I will be alone. And with chores to be done, I don't think I will be bored for long. But there is a thing inside nagging..... not sure what is it.




P.S As I was dazing in the cafe writing this...( I learning to slow down...) , I notice something interesting : the cafe ( similar to Coffee Bean in SG) offer valet parking for scooters.