Bon Voyage!

Finally the D day arrived! Had a good rest due to a rainy night and woke around 9 plus and went for a run. Won't be running for 2 weeks..but I'm sure I will make it up with plenty of walking. Pack and pack..it's like the more I pack , the more I have things to pack.. =/ Hope I don't bring too much unnecessary stuff. Maybe I will sleep abit in e afternoon before our 8.30pm flight. Looking forward going to the airport........

Well, Sayonara for now...Will be back 2 weeks later to update my blog with pictures and stories! =))

Hope I won't be that sway....

It's already friday , still no sign of the eagerly awaiting event. Shitty..my knee is really hurting, even walking hurts. What I dread most is that all my attempts only make things worse :- more pain, more heavy and sway sway if happen on the plane, can't lie down, can't sleep and immediately when reach japan, have to start walking. Really pray hard that nightmare won't happen. Next time, really have to plan ahead...haiz..could have plan the trip a week later. Can only hope for the best and bring plenty of painkiller.

Clear the mind ....time to relax!

Close off a trade today and took a hit. But I'm feeling at peace. More like relieved unlike another position I close few days back because that I didn't followed my own rules. I finally got something off my mind. I have settled on the new strategies and the testings have ended. I have broken the code and it is just a matter of time.

I will come back afresh to take back 10 times of what the market have taken from me.

Balloon head

Last night went to cut hair with Dango.....Think Dango's balloon was "transplanted" to me.... =(

Aww.......

Hmm...feel so weak...legs and arms all so wobbly. All as a result of pineapple, tea, fruits and more pineapple juice. It better end quick or else I think I will faint before I get to Japan.

Japan here I come!

Was having mixed feelings only yesterday about the long trip ; like whether was the period too long; will it be fun etc..but today, it's different. My sister who went japan twice before start telling me what to look out for in food and shopping....and it all sound so exciting and fresh! Imagine my sister who like to shop at Country Road, talking wisfully about Japan own line of 'Giodano'. " They are cheap eg $15 SGD and of gd quality and design! And there is a line shops called 'Japanhands' where alot of cute stuff can be found and they are not expensive.And the restuarants are all by machines where you choose and pay by coins for your food, and they will do the rest, all without the need to communicate!"

Fascinating! I guess I was worrying about the shopping and food and not being able to buy much after hearing much scary stories but now I think it's going to be a wonderful fun trip afterall!

We are going to takes loads of pictures and paste and paste in our blogs together with commentary. NICEEEEE! =P

Food for thoughts..

"Take what lessons you can from the trade, and move on to the next one. Give each trade your very best and look to learn something from it, but don’t overanalyze it. The end result is a profit or a loss, so take it and move on. You’re better off putting more analysis into a month’s worth of trading than looking at every individual effort under the microscope."

Very sound advice that I should take in trading as well in life.

The smell of hotel breakfast...

So used to not wearing watch nowadays. It wasn't the case before where I wear my watch everywhere. But even if I didn't "hire" out my watch , I am also not wearing to work also..I wonder is it I don't like the metal feeling ...maybe I should get a plastic or leather watch. Hmm....

Anyway, today as usual didn't wear my watch and I just hurry hurry to work and end up the 1st at the office. Taking into account I'm usually 5mins late, I'm 5mins early today. =) But the strangest thing is that the moment I step out of the lift at my level, I seem to smell those hotel breakfast smell where one experience during a vacation. Those wonderful coffee plus bacon plus eggs smell..... Made me feel like I'm on holiday. Hmm.. I don't think I will experience much of that in Japan because our accomodations mostly don't provide breakfast. But I don't mind cause we can go eat snacks like.......DANGO! Haha..great, I think my body is adjusting to holiday mood liao!

Visiting my "one-eyed monster" today, going to do a lot of *pat pat pat* and *sayang sayang* . Hope I don't get clumsy again cause your " play gently with me " reminder literally melts me. =}

Poor Dango

Didn't expect the morning sms. Thought you would probably sleep till the sun goes down then wake. Was kinda worried when I know what happen. But as the day dragged on, I got more heartpain as I imagine how much it hurts and irritates. But there is nothing I can do. Thought of visiting run into hindrance but at least it's for your good.

Hmm... wish things didn't end the way it did last night. Miss those "haa...."

Gongmei Nasai...hope I got that right...

Memories...

What are memories? Are they just things you remember visually or auditory? It seems that there are some that will invoked some feelings. Not sure how to describe it. Strange feelings belonging to the past? Or the aftermath thoughts of the remembered events or things? Maybe just a sigh will best describe it. Sometimes a single flashback can open the floodgate and leave one dazed by all those images reenactments. End up trying to remember those details and those things felt then to filled up the missing memory. Maybe it's good (or is it bad ?) that humans are known to have short memories. That's why they keep making the same mistakes even though they had their lessons. Pain that comes with those lessons also go away with time. Good in a sense that it will make one learn to move on and try again and be hopeful. Bad if they don't learn from the mistake and suffer again , and again till they learn their lesson. My photographic memory served me very well in times of need, but it also left me cursed with things that I don't wish to remember. My head hurts... maybe my memory needs a reformat.

PLUs

Was out for lunch and just as I was heading back to office, saw these 2 people saying their goodbyes. Both don't look conventional females. One is wearing a power suit ( maybe that's why they caught my attention cause you don't see 3 piece suit everyday) but yet her backview tells me she is a woman..and that suit is more of neutral cutting but yet she looks butch to me . To me, she can be considered a PLA la. Maybe its her haircut. The other female is more womanly although her hair is short also and she probably is a PLP. Both straight away saw me and seems to know. But I looked away. Compare to the PLA, one might think I'm a PLP but one can't be any more wrong. Anyway they give each other parting hugs and i overheard the more butchy gal said " you are always so skinny....etc". This remind me of the never-ending " eat fat fat ah!" =)

PMS

Not a very good start to a day but nonetheless , I can understand the moodiness of PMS where everything seem irritating. Hope a happy meal will do it .

Didn't go to Femme Fest last night. Didn't feel like going. Didn't feel like I missed anything either. Perhaps I have forgotten the feeling of being to such events. Or perhaps I'm old. Was happy just watching TV toegther and to sleep. But I felt detached. I guess the cons to trading is really the tensed feeling when you have an open position. Hate the feeling of fear. Fear of losses. Fear of losing the profits. That shouldn't be the case, I need to refocus my thoughts. I need to learn to relax. The skill of loosening up really need to practised. Shitty and I'm not even having my PMS now. Arrgh, I really hope I don't feel the PMS nearing my trip.

Talking about the trip reminds me of a conversation I had with a colleague. Was lamenting how much this trip costs me and realised that it's been almost 2 yrs since I went on a "worthwhile" vacation. FYI, less than 4 days is not considered a vacation, just a break. Business trip to London also no count cause its more dread than anticipation. Back to the conversation, she was saying it's ok for the trip to be slightly costly since it's been 2 years. Quite true...which means for the next year, it would be to nearby places like Koh Samui and Tioman or not at all. I'm sure dango won't mind sentosa...she needs some time to sew up the hole this Japan trip made in her bank account also. =P

Not too bad a day....

How does it feel to make a month worth of salary in a matter of days? Hmm... had a few good days in the market. But I kinda feel very neutral...cause as it is all expected like dat... But I'm grateful of couse. It's as if the time has turned for me...everything is going great . That kinda of worries me. Hmm.... cause good things don't last?

Anyway, looking forward to spend 4 days 3 nights with my dango later on.. +)
Miss our usual midweek rendevous at your place. Keke....

Car loyality

I think Dango's father car is very loyal to her father and not to her...so much that it played hide and seek with us last night. Nearly searched the whole carpark. *pant* . It was so smart...hide until another level. Poor dango...looked so flustered. *hug hug* Might have seen angry but I'm not. I'm more occupied that there isn't much time left if I stay over hence...hmm...

Think I better get my slip-on soon or else can't really tong over during weeknight.

A quiet day....

Quiet day at work so thought of writing something that I have been thinking. About human nature. About life.

I'm at a stage that I should say I should be happy. Good job; finally getting somewhere in my trading after spending so much time and effort; and of course that someone.

But what I want to write about is how life revolve around human nature. A lot of things exist in this world and keep repeating itself is because of humans. And how human nature don't change. Life itself is unpredictable but within a small time frame or subject, there is order within chaos. What I discovered in trading the market show this over and over again. How people thought they have it all when they made $30k and lost $50k during the downturn. Well, what does it says? As long as you stay in the game, don't count your eggs before they are hatched. As long you are breathing, life is not done with you. Always be vigilant. Like a cat.

Hmm..I'm getting abit weee too philosophical here. A lot of people would be dying to have the golden goose I hold - liken to the possibilty of striking 4Ds on a consistent basis. Wonderful isn't it? Sadly, uncontentment is part of human nature. One have to mindfully remember to be contented and be happy. So should I. Having dreams make one restless. But what's life without dreams?

Hmm....tonight I'm going to do the never done before - tonging overnight at dango's place during a weeknight! Keke...but hor, this means I'm going to miss my running tml =/ But it makes egonomical sense to do the meeting and tonging today ,so I guess I will run on thurs and friday consecutively to make up. I feel fat already missing a day of run. *bleah* Thought of running back to home in the morning but then I don't want to slump dead at my desk during the day or during the run. Morbid? This remind me of a conversation over the weekend :

I asked," What if I died before you?"
She said ," I will keep scolding you!"
*Eyes big big* " That's what my grandmother did when my grandfather passed away and she is a rooster too!"

*SWEAT*

"Great Love and Great Achievement involves Great Risk"

Hmm..just an observation... enjoyed just talking and exhanging views when reading the papers or watching tv. It's nice to know someone shared your views or at least know what you are talking about sometimes...doesnt need to be all the time though. That would be a tall order.

I think I know more about sensuality now....it's more than beauty...it's more than external... it's about the calm aura that is so endearing.

Update: on reflection..I wonder is it calm or.... a heck care perception? Maybe it's a good thing not to care so much? Hmm...this could remind me what attracted me in the beginning...Lighten everything up abit.

Finally a breather....

Phew! Managed to finally reconciled the tedious trade sheet and can relax....

I was telling Dango that the next time I do this reconcillation again , we would have come back from Japan...Don't know to feel happy or sad ....hmm...I think I really shouldn't think too far ahead...should just imagine how fun the 2 weeks going to be!

Looking forward to next weekend where dango will finally finish her papers and we can finally enjoy ourselves shopping, eating and watching movie and simply nuaring without a care!