Just read an article in ELLE May copy called "Skinny Fat" and its says when the fats began to form at your waist and cause you to have a thick waist is because you are stressed. No wonder I have a pot belly although I'm generally slender. It says for normal weight gain, fats will go to the bum and arms but for me, its always the belly. And to make things worse, when stressed, people ( me included) tends to go for fatty food which made things worse. And the solution, to chill out. Yes, to simply relax. No wonder when I'm more relaxed, I tend to eat less of those snacks at night. Hmmmmm.....
Then, it says laughing , sleep , hugging and kissing will reduce stress...hmm...hvn't had much of those since I was here. Hmmmmmmmm....no wonder Dango also complains that she seem to be have thicker waist..we are suffering the same symptoms. With Dango initally....was relaxed no matter what...but stress builds up when one grows older it seems....Hmm...have to think of ways to chill out.
Sunday, April 22, 2007
A cafe called Peaches
In a cafe near my apt called Peaches. Heard that it was opened by a Singaporean and it sells Chilli crab. A set of Chilli crab with watermelon juice is only $5 SGD. Maybe I will try it later.
Was intending to have a quiet day at home till my landlord says he is coming home with some friends to cook. Didn't feel very comfortable so I came out but to see them talking so lively in the living room, bitching about another friend of theirs and little things make me long for such gathering. I have almost forgottern how its like to hang out with people. There are ABC gal and an chinese australian guy. They looked cool people with foreign accents and all and somehow I feel I can't fit into them. Been feeling this way since I arrived here. Last night dinner with the huge bunch of people are the same. There are singaporeans, americans, and many viet kieus but to me its more like business networking. I just feel that I might not have change my mindset to fit into the upper class living here. Actually if work is somehow to my liking as well as leave me alone to do my things, the living here is actually good when you are an expats. That is what i suspect what draws those expats here. *sigh* There are really many opportunities here cause things are quite lacking in terms of talented skills. I could easy set up a website doing stocks..if not you have the right people. The locals do not have the skills which is where the viet kieus come into the picture. Its a slow process. To live here and use their cheap resources is good, to work with them is another thing.
Sometimes I feel so doomed. Like why can't I like other people. I seem to avoid people. To totally shut them out. I was thinking was I always like this? In secondary school? In JC? I seem to be suddenly so withdrawn.. Is it normal that I don't feel the need to be in the company of people? Or is it at my age , its norm to not being able to make friends easily. Or maybe I so used to be alone that I'm more happy being alone. But yet on 1 hand, I know its not good but maybe I have lost the skills to talk with people. Or maybe its the price to pay to be able to strike gold. With my trading, it really enables me to make a very good living without depending on anyone at all. Maybe my personality seeks out a vocation like trading or is it trading that make me a hermit...hmmmm...
Was intending to have a quiet day at home till my landlord says he is coming home with some friends to cook. Didn't feel very comfortable so I came out but to see them talking so lively in the living room, bitching about another friend of theirs and little things make me long for such gathering. I have almost forgottern how its like to hang out with people. There are ABC gal and an chinese australian guy. They looked cool people with foreign accents and all and somehow I feel I can't fit into them. Been feeling this way since I arrived here. Last night dinner with the huge bunch of people are the same. There are singaporeans, americans, and many viet kieus but to me its more like business networking. I just feel that I might not have change my mindset to fit into the upper class living here. Actually if work is somehow to my liking as well as leave me alone to do my things, the living here is actually good when you are an expats. That is what i suspect what draws those expats here. *sigh* There are really many opportunities here cause things are quite lacking in terms of talented skills. I could easy set up a website doing stocks..if not you have the right people. The locals do not have the skills which is where the viet kieus come into the picture. Its a slow process. To live here and use their cheap resources is good, to work with them is another thing.
Sometimes I feel so doomed. Like why can't I like other people. I seem to avoid people. To totally shut them out. I was thinking was I always like this? In secondary school? In JC? I seem to be suddenly so withdrawn.. Is it normal that I don't feel the need to be in the company of people? Or is it at my age , its norm to not being able to make friends easily. Or maybe I so used to be alone that I'm more happy being alone. But yet on 1 hand, I know its not good but maybe I have lost the skills to talk with people. Or maybe its the price to pay to be able to strike gold. With my trading, it really enables me to make a very good living without depending on anyone at all. Maybe my personality seeks out a vocation like trading or is it trading that make me a hermit...hmmmm...
Saturday, April 14, 2007
THE SAHARA DESERT
This is taken on my way back. See those tall buildings? My apt is ard there...that's how far I walked from this afternoon under the scorching sun. Lucky I waited till sun set to walk back or else I think I will be cooked halfway on the highway back.
Lazy sweaty saturaday.....
Woke up and had my run as usual....it was nice to finally have a nice cup of coffee while watching Tavel & Living introducing Best Beaches... *daydream* Then while channel surfing, a movie caught my eye and lucky I continue watching as its the movie CASINO..it was good..capitavate me that I delay going out of the house to the cafe even though it is damn hot in the apt. Got a msg that I will be alone till night anyway, so no hurry to go to the internet cafe. The show is kind of like showing how a mafia group who actually have a good thing going with so much money coming in but everything just fall apart when greed and idlness come into the picture. I was more interested in how the mafia boss treated his wife , a ex hooker so nice with so much money and jewelleries but still she want to hang around another useless man. Hmm...
I heard there was a Highland coffee at dist 7 where I lived and I was curious to where is it as it could save me from going downtown everytime. So I asked around and people point me to a direction, giving me the impression that its not far. Yeah right, I am in that cafe right now and I felt I just cross the SAHARA DESERT! Really...I think they feel its very near cause they are all refering to scootering. Hmm..anyway, I thought the cafe will be deserted since on the way I don't see many people but I'm wrong. Its so strange that people will find their way to civilizationh some how some way. It is not as crowded as in the downtown where I have to wait for a table. Well, like me, I think many people would kill for some airconditioning.
I was thinking that exactly a week ago, I was still with Dango ...and we had breakfast at Boon Keng ..carrot cake and chwee kueh...hmm..so fast...but in another 10 days, I'm going back again. But I worried that after April, it might not feel as fast. Haiz...
Think I will take my super slow speed and do my things...
I heard there was a Highland coffee at dist 7 where I lived and I was curious to where is it as it could save me from going downtown everytime. So I asked around and people point me to a direction, giving me the impression that its not far. Yeah right, I am in that cafe right now and I felt I just cross the SAHARA DESERT! Really...I think they feel its very near cause they are all refering to scootering. Hmm..anyway, I thought the cafe will be deserted since on the way I don't see many people but I'm wrong. Its so strange that people will find their way to civilizationh some how some way. It is not as crowded as in the downtown where I have to wait for a table. Well, like me, I think many people would kill for some airconditioning.
I was thinking that exactly a week ago, I was still with Dango ...and we had breakfast at Boon Keng ..carrot cake and chwee kueh...hmm..so fast...but in another 10 days, I'm going back again. But I worried that after April, it might not feel as fast. Haiz...
Think I will take my super slow speed and do my things...
Friday, April 13, 2007
Can't help it...
About 1 hr to knocking off in the office, but I have been having wandering thoughts since afternoon. Usually I will blog only during the weekend cause that’s when I have plenty of time to kill.
Anyway…I keep thinking times when I am with you… like going places during the weekend.. then I also think about last weekend when I came back.. and I remember how we kissed … and kissed. Hmm… hope to have more of that soon.
( ) ___ ( )
( ^ oo ^ )
---->! <-- Saliva
Anyway…I keep thinking times when I am with you… like going places during the weekend.. then I also think about last weekend when I came back.. and I remember how we kissed … and kissed. Hmm… hope to have more of that soon.
( ) ___ ( )
( ^ oo ^ )
---->! <-- Saliva
Thursday, April 05, 2007
Yay yay...counting down to HOME
Tml taking a morning flight back to SG to be with Dango for 3 days!! So happy...looking so forward to it.
Was at a clinic doing medical checkup when it reminds me of times in sg...whenever, whichever is it...be it a man by a lorry..it will remind me times in sg when i see such scene. Cause maybe the clinic has angmo, japanese etc and they all communicate thru English as if its very normal. It is a comforting scene I suppose, so much so as it reminds me of SG.
While walking back, I passed Rex Hotel. Remembered that time when Dango came with me and she told me her dreams about Rex Hotel. Hmmm...can't wait to cuddle with her while watching DVDs I bought here...it will be like old times. Ahhhhh.....can't wait! CAN"T WAIT!
Was at a clinic doing medical checkup when it reminds me of times in sg...whenever, whichever is it...be it a man by a lorry..it will remind me times in sg when i see such scene. Cause maybe the clinic has angmo, japanese etc and they all communicate thru English as if its very normal. It is a comforting scene I suppose, so much so as it reminds me of SG.
While walking back, I passed Rex Hotel. Remembered that time when Dango came with me and she told me her dreams about Rex Hotel. Hmmm...can't wait to cuddle with her while watching DVDs I bought here...it will be like old times. Ahhhhh.....can't wait! CAN"T WAIT!
Sunday, April 01, 2007
Finally moving to apt...
Just checked out of the hotel and I'm going to move into the apt I'm sharing with a colleague's friend later on. Meanwhile in a cafe, killing time.
Got some photos to post for this week as usual.
My sandal seem like giving way any moment so lucky I remember I saw this pair of shoe near the Russian Market. The Russian market is actually just a floor of few shops in a 3 storey high Lucky Plaza. They sell mostly sports wear that are mainly fakes i think as well a shop selling thick winter wear. I bought this pair not at the Russian market, but just 2nd floor the plaza. There seem more things..and wow, I saw a very nice Bugalri watch that I think I can get it at about $40SGD..really cool but I don't know whether I should buy anot hmm.....something wrong with my Bygalri spelling I know. Wait for Dango to correct me ...
Saw this pack of sugar cane at the supermarket one night after work and bought it cause its a long long time since i chew on sugar cane! I think it was the last time I went to China with my mum in 1993... Anyway, I finished the whole pack at one go and felt like sugar overdose like that..not a good feeling though. 20 cents of cheap thrill.
This is the packet of something that looked like small tomatoes but they are not. Kinda nice..never ate b4 and it came with a small pack of their usual dip w fruits- salt+ chilli+sugar .
I also had a swell time opening up a coconut with my trusty Daiso knife in my hotel toliet sink! It was good though but after finishing the whole coconut I was pretty dizzy..... It cost 60cents only.
Hmm..but overall this week is not good. Don't know why..just feel very bad, like depressing like that. I'm no longer feeling cheery about things even though I try. I just feel very sian and sickening. At office is like the locals can't seem to be able to carry a decent mutually understandable conversation. So much so that I don't try to talk often. No doubt they feel I'm anti-social but I find that I don't care. Not that they are not important but I find that I too tired to care. I was supposed to go Hanoi for 5 days training but cause I'm coming back to SG next fri , I can't go and the boss seem not too happy about it. Just too bad. But I also don't know whether I should go. It have nothing to do with my present job BUT if I intend to join the other company in 2 months, then the training will be good for me.But now I don't even know where will I be then.
Was thinking in bed after being rudely woken up by the music in the hotel this morning whether it was a right decision to come vietnam anot. If given a chance, I think I would think or at least plan things abit differently. 1st of all , the bonus I gave up is only worth it if I hang in vietnam till year end, if not, I would have been better off to hang in there in my old company for 1 more mth plus then quit and shake leg. I should have asked for a signup bonus and at least things didn't work out, I can go back without regret. But I thought the exposure would be good, as I'm stagnating in sg. And the money is matching providing I get the bonus at the end of the year. But if I don't find a way to see things differently, weekdays are going to kill me. On the other hand, I try to imagine will I be happier in SG if I go back without a job...hmm..
Even though I'm 1 week closer to meeting Dango after 1 month of separation, I don't feel as cheerio as last week. Maybe I'm pmsing. I also think coming down with something. But of cos I'm happy to see her, I think I'm just blogged down by current state of things.
Got some photos to post for this week as usual.
My sandal seem like giving way any moment so lucky I remember I saw this pair of shoe near the Russian Market. The Russian market is actually just a floor of few shops in a 3 storey high Lucky Plaza. They sell mostly sports wear that are mainly fakes i think as well a shop selling thick winter wear. I bought this pair not at the Russian market, but just 2nd floor the plaza. There seem more things..and wow, I saw a very nice Bugalri watch that I think I can get it at about $40SGD..really cool but I don't know whether I should buy anot hmm.....something wrong with my Bygalri spelling I know. Wait for Dango to correct me ...
Saw this pack of sugar cane at the supermarket one night after work and bought it cause its a long long time since i chew on sugar cane! I think it was the last time I went to China with my mum in 1993... Anyway, I finished the whole pack at one go and felt like sugar overdose like that..not a good feeling though. 20 cents of cheap thrill.
This is the packet of something that looked like small tomatoes but they are not. Kinda nice..never ate b4 and it came with a small pack of their usual dip w fruits- salt+ chilli+sugar .
I also had a swell time opening up a coconut with my trusty Daiso knife in my hotel toliet sink! It was good though but after finishing the whole coconut I was pretty dizzy..... It cost 60cents only.
Hmm..but overall this week is not good. Don't know why..just feel very bad, like depressing like that. I'm no longer feeling cheery about things even though I try. I just feel very sian and sickening. At office is like the locals can't seem to be able to carry a decent mutually understandable conversation. So much so that I don't try to talk often. No doubt they feel I'm anti-social but I find that I don't care. Not that they are not important but I find that I too tired to care. I was supposed to go Hanoi for 5 days training but cause I'm coming back to SG next fri , I can't go and the boss seem not too happy about it. Just too bad. But I also don't know whether I should go. It have nothing to do with my present job BUT if I intend to join the other company in 2 months, then the training will be good for me.But now I don't even know where will I be then.
Was thinking in bed after being rudely woken up by the music in the hotel this morning whether it was a right decision to come vietnam anot. If given a chance, I think I would think or at least plan things abit differently. 1st of all , the bonus I gave up is only worth it if I hang in vietnam till year end, if not, I would have been better off to hang in there in my old company for 1 more mth plus then quit and shake leg. I should have asked for a signup bonus and at least things didn't work out, I can go back without regret. But I thought the exposure would be good, as I'm stagnating in sg. And the money is matching providing I get the bonus at the end of the year. But if I don't find a way to see things differently, weekdays are going to kill me. On the other hand, I try to imagine will I be happier in SG if I go back without a job...hmm..
Even though I'm 1 week closer to meeting Dango after 1 month of separation, I don't feel as cheerio as last week. Maybe I'm pmsing. I also think coming down with something. But of cos I'm happy to see her, I think I'm just blogged down by current state of things.
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