Weeeeeeeee...

Last sat, i bought flabby a Wii and flabby also bought me a Wii!! Yup...we both bought the same things for each other birthdays! ..........caused we shared it ! haha

Immediately after we installed it, flabby appropriately named it as " Weeeeeee...." as in we. ( but im sure she didn't think of it that way) Nintendo is also very smart to called each character as Mii...as in Me. Flabby created a nice Mii for me and for herself....a very lookalike Mii in a very weird way...but it is so funny!! Everytime i think of her Mii, i cant help laughing.

The Wii is more than funny then fun...we really laughed so much yesterday creating those Mii....

Cant wait to get more games...

after vacation....

Actually I have many times got things to post but always too occupied with something else to really blog. Haiz...

Even now , all I want to say is that everyday seem to be a struggle struggle....maybe i demand to much. Work seems fine..but haiz....



I got cute pics from our US trips to post..so many things like in my mind to write but just either too lazy or too pre occupied to focus on leisure thing....if only I can get my mind to be at peace. Unless that happens, guess everything will still be on the backburner.

But i just want to post these few silly pics before flabby beats me to it..haha...







Looks like her head being beaten by a creature...










....As usual, someone trying to act cute.....

....Looks more like a viking helmet...

As we work each day, seem to miss US more even though we were complaining throughout the trip. But at least we were carefree..

The flights were scary as they were so exhausting...and sickening. But lucky no cancellation or delay flights though.

Will hope to post more soon...

How long have it been since I update

Here I am blogging on a Friday night as that is what I told flabby I would do since I hardly am free nowadays. Today is an exceptional night as Flabby is out with colleagues. This weekend with Flabby will be a short one I guess as I will be out with my ex colleague tml afternoon and only meeting Flabby in the late afternoon...

So much have happened since I blogged ...more in terms of work arena. Was so busy from late May till mid July due to company's migration of system. So bad that I think I was burnt out and suffered from work stress. Lucky saw a doc and seems better now..

Beside that, me and flabby also visited the zoo 2 weeks back and are going to the night safari this Sat ( pray it doesnt rain again). I guess our weekends are usually quite busy although I remember a time when we were quite bored during the weekend..hmm... Nowadays we don't even have time to watch the piling movies that we downloaded...Really not sure where did the time disappear to...

Then very soon, it will be time to go VACATION...can't wait. But nowadays we seem to be too preoccupied to imagine how the trip will be. ...I also quite stress whenever I think of the trip cause so much things I need to familarise again before we go as much of the planning were done quite long ago..Haizzz

Trading have been not bad lately. Pretty excited about the recent US trading ( after a long dry spell)...got an idea and been testing , so far quite promising as it mimic the similar strategies I used successfully in the Singapore and Hong Kong market. Hope there will be good news the next time I blog. Heeee...

1st weekend without flabby flabby...

Actually its not the 1st weekend without flabby...but in singapore context , it is the 1st time. Flabby had went to climb mountain in Kinabalu to shed some flabs...but think she load up on the flabs beforehand liao.. It's been a long long time since I wake up in my own bed on a Saturday and spending a quiet Friday night at home..

Feel weird going to Flabby house as usual after work on Friday but not expecting to see her but just to check on Fartie. Fartie was more dull looking compared to Thursday. Maybe she is bored locked up and maybe she missed Flabby too. But she still hestitate to enter flabby room as usual...haha...all the furry things all stuck at the doorway....

Went to meet some friends for lunch..very nice but talked till thoart very dry....Also feel weird driving in the car without flabby lately ..hmm...think just not used to it bah...

Stop to wonder....

Life is ever so busy, always flowing..so much that people hardly stop to think back how far they have travelled. I happen to think about this especially regarding my career wise.

5 Years back I was struggling to learn how to trade..working partime basis to realise my naive dream of trading forex for a living...earning a pitiful amount of around $1k a month. The struggling never seem to end. I was dreaming of a job called a trader- those people working behind those platforms that I was trying to learn to trade on.... how nice I imagine it must be to be working with trades everyday.

5 Year down the road. I am working behind those platforms where I used to struggle to trade on. I am in fact in charge of the trading desk now with 3 people under me...with me making many trading decisions regarding client's trades fate earning many times over.
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If I didn't stop to think, I may not have realised I have realised at least 1 dream. It wasn't easy. I was thinking what I did to achieve this.... I cant put a single reason to it. It wasnt one thing I did, and it certainly not because of the way I dress or look. It was just a continous learning of the industry, process of extending/ sharpening my skills and knowledge , exposure to all kind of readings and platform experience from all corners. But I also attribute to luck..because I have been down on my luck before so I know the difference.

It is good to reflect and at least give some gratitude. Humans always find fault with what they have..I have my share of grudges now about life but if the current package was given to me 5 years back, it would have been a miracle. Our perpective is always clouded with complaints , hence it is wise to stop and be grateful for many things.

Treetop

Like blury said...its was finally conquered. However, it was abit of a disappointment cause the scene is just ....a lot a lot of jungle trees thats all. And the hike there was.....1 word...unexpectedly LONG. I would recommend anyone who want to go up there to be prepared as I see alot of people who seem to dress too "nice" to go up there. For us, the weather have been kind as it rained overnight. Kinda muddy but at least not that hot. So I can't imagine if someone chose a typical hot there to climb the tree top..it will be very trying.

The walk back after the treetop of about 5.5 km was kind of numbing as it is just walk n walk without any scenary ( as it is jus walking in the jungle) and too tired to think also. At night I have to put some Salonpas to prevent any muscle cramp the next day.

Also confirm dango's Thunder thigh indeed powerful as it can really walk n walk. Think she shouldn't have much problem for the hike up kinabalu...GAMBATE THUNDER THIGH!!

Been 1 month...

It has been only a month since I moved back to SG for good but life in Vietnam is already like a vague memory to me - something when I think back made me try to remember how I dreaded life then but now.. I am like not doing any better. Guess its the boredom. But soon it will be CNY and time will pass fast....Feb, Mar, April, May..then it would be SEPT - Going US! Now I only dread starting work even though I'm bored because I hate to see a person at work and I think my life would be made terrible by him.

Hmm...I still remember the dreary time when I was working in SG : morning rush to squeeze for bus..and evening same thing. I was thinking then life in Viet with taxi would be so great. Actually it was good in vietnam with the daily shuttle bus in a way. But not good in another way. So much pros and cons in life. So tiring. One moment it is wonderful , another moment it is dreadful.

Humans beings are like this : You see me good, I see you good but the fact is everybody is no good. Everybody have their own headaches, own perspective of " lack of " something. But is it possible to have the "perfect" happiness? The moment in time where everything falls into place and life is perfect? It have to exist since isn't that what we are all looking for? Or are we? I think subconsiously we think we all want the same thing : good jobs, more money, buy a house, buy a car, good health, travel to far places ( and not regional only) , eat good restuarant etc . But on the consious level, most of us are just slugging away not knowing what tommorow brings. Just like a friend said to me," Nobody likes to work but we all have to work." Another advise me, " Don't think so much , don't be stressed up over work security." *headache*

A Slow dayyyy....

Kinda bored today hence thought that I might as well contribute to my own blog.

Hmm..been doing much thinking lately so I will write about that...

Was thinking about what happened throughout this last 1 year... many things happened but yet, it is like nothing afterall.

I had a stable "girlfriend" before I left for Vietnam. But soon, I find that there are other more exciting "plays" out there. Those that need less patience and time and effort and yet seemingly will be "nice" to me . I started a quest to look for such a "gem" and forget about my stable girlfriend.

And when I think I found "the one", I will start to rave about how "she" is suitable for me. But usually after 1 month or less, I will start to get skepitical after some faults that I didn't expect to see. Then maybe I will try to look for someone similar but do not have those faults. Then the history repeat itself again. The latest is being one that can keep me happy 90% of time but during those other 10% of the time, I will really be turned off. Makes me wonder whether will I be better off over a longer period of time or worse off.

That was what set me thinking the last week and I looked at all my the past history.
And it seem that my stable "girlfriend" was the right one all these time. Although have to be patience with her and can only have fun when she allows it, there is no terrible faults to begin with. I did however, "modify her" abit to suit my excitment crave but will have to put up with any side effects there might be. But I still think it is better over the long term. *sigh* This is what I meant that so much yet nothing really changed after 1 year -- back to the same old same old but its nice also as too much excitement makes me hard to sleep too.

Btw, the "girlfriends" I referred to above are all my trading system models.

And yar...I am that BORED to write in this analogy. And I hope Flabby didn't faint.

Once upon a day......

Just last Sunday, I went hiking at MacRitichie Reservior to see the Treetop which everyone say is wonderful. But too bad halfway it rained so we turned back without reaching the peak.
Who did I went with? See for yourself....






IT'S.... IT'S...........

....... FLABBY RED RIDING HOOD!!

Yup...so flabby till can't button up properly!

So nice. so lazy....

Been back for about 5 days ...been so relaxing although I have been running around to do some errands but still it feels better to be back. There is continuity with things I can do with Dango...no more hurry do this cause we have limited time.

It is so nice to lie on the bed and listen to music. So lazy to get up and do my regular stuff.

I AM COMING BACK

Today is my last working day in Vietnam and tomorrow early morning I will be flying back to Singapore FOR GOOD!! It has been 6 weeks since I last seen Flabby. The previous longest record was 5 weeks. Really excited…back to my old life as I used to have…back to everything. Can’t wait to see Flabby….I can stay with her everyday. I can lay beside her and hug her anytime I want. I can share a kiss every night and every morning. WE CAN PLAY TOGETHER AGAIN! Of course I mean play sims la…play facebook la...play fartie la. We can go dinner any where we want. We can go shopping for never-ending groceries anytime. We can go for Herstory nights. We can jalan shopping centres at leisure WITHOUT needing to think when I will leave again. It has been an eventful yet boring year. Thank god the nightmare is over with everything I wanted to accomplished done and heading back home with the bonus I conned ( as put it by Flabby) and with a well paid job heading my way as I planned.

I really missed the comfort in Singapore where people can understand what Im saying.

The sufferings have finally be over and its time to reap the reward.

An article that motivates

Below is an article I find very realistic and it remind me what I have to do ...and keep doing. I can't give up. Sometimes I will be trading smoothly but sometimes I suffer losses . It is no big deal and I shouldn't let it get to me and give up.



Surviving Chaos

Why is it that some people who are very successful in demanding professions have trouble gaining confidence as a trader? Why do some people buckle under pressure, yet others thrive on it? Perhaps because markets are often unpredictable and uncertain; causing some to act impulsively, abandoning their trading plans prematurely. Traders, who are able to weather the storm to make enormous profits, have a combination of characteristics that make them winning traders.
Of course there is no substitute for experience. The winning trader has experience with the markets and with his or her own personality. New traders are very much like beginners learning a new sport, such as skiing or tennis. They haven't experienced the variety of events that may come up. They see the market as a structure of random movements. The winning trader sees structure in what others see as chaos. Over time, comes an intuitive feel for the markets. They can sense when particular market conditions have emerged and they know that the odds of success are on their side.
Uncertainty is anxiety provoking and new traders succumb to the fear. When they are ready to put on trades, they aren't calm and focused; they are scattered and afraid. Winning traders, in contrast, have experience, and confidence. They know that the odds are in their favor, and that if they make enough trades under these ideal market conditions, they will come out ahead. Since they know that in all likelihood that they will succeed, they are calm and relaxed. Of course there are no guarantees, but they truly believe that it won't be the end of the world should they hit upon a series of losing trades. Should they encounter the worst-case scenario, they know they will live to trade another day and make the losses back.
When a trader has genuine trading skills, he or she knows that there is little to worry about in the long run. He or she is never stressed out. The uncertainty and unpredictability of the markets that produces stress in the new trader is seen as excitement and opportunity by the skilled, seasoned trader. The more trades you make, the more success you enjoy, the more likely you will gain experience and hone your trading skills. It will not happen over night, but it will happen eventually. In the meantime, you might as well accept your fate and patiently wait until you build up superior skills and confidence. If you stay optimistic, working hard, you will gain valuable market experience, and survive the chaos.

Finally here comes the end of the year....

December is finally here....I am looking forward to it for more than 1 reason. Firstly of course is I am going back sg for good..another reason is that Dec 11 was a day in astrology that is supposed to meant something. In fact, I am mixed about Decemeber as it is the most eventful month in terms of cosmic activities : many planets are moving in December and with so many of them moving, the cosmic sky is anything but peaceful. There will be good as well as bad things and they will certainly not go unnoticed thats for sure. I guess all we can do is just be more careful in everything we do.

The crossing of a New Year also cast a dark sky as Mars meet Pluto. Mr Aggression meets Mr Death. War? Terrorism? Hmm....

Sleep too much....

Wake on Sunday with something like a headache. Think I slept too much over the weekend...was lazing on the bed and take my HP to clean out inbox cause its getting full. Was reading all the smses that the now "flabby" sent me. All the way since I moved to Vietnam. Can't imagine that it is November now..I won't say how times flies cause it wasnt a easy 8 mths so far...but when I looked at the messages and the date they were sent, they felt recent. Maybe cause everything around me is still the same.

But glad I'm going back soon although still got 2mths to go...but much better than 5,6,7 mths before. Another thing that I observed from reading the smses is also from " dear cutie fatty bom bom" , I am now only "fatty" ... hmmm... that is what Time and Distance do to relationship.

Local Context ...

...... in Sg of course... What I mean is that this morning after seeing the landlord wasn't back last night, I proceed to make a cup of nice coffee and bring out Sg newspapers to read and remember to click to taiwanese variety show channels. Usually I just read papers abit before going online but today I really read slowly and with chinese speaking programs on the TV, i really for the 1 hour, seem like transport back to the time when I was still living in Sg...so noslagic...ahhhh...very soon I would be able to do that for as much as I want!

Inspiring Quote

Not sure did I remember to post this previously but it make very good sense.

" Those who take risk will earn the big houses and cars for themselves whereas those who dare not take risk will always work for those that who dare"

Long time no update..

It has been some time since I lasted blogged and so many things have happened or progressed nicely. Most importantly , I coming back SG soon! Ex employer finally realised how they have screwed up and is desperate for me to go back and is willing to pay for my 2 mths notice when I resigned in late Nov after I get my bonus. They would be willing to pay for my bonus too if it hasnt been too big for them..keke. Been Quite tired with the constant up and down feelings associate with leaving and going back SG. Very hard on relationship as I don't stay long enough to spend quality time.

Been back sg last week and it was a short trip only but in Nov I will be coming back for 5 days and after that, I believe it will be a breeze cause Dec will be more like a holiday month for me as I will go to HK for the company trip then I believe straight back to SG. Oh..shitty...luggage could exceed limit..hmm..been carrying stuff back to SG during my monthly trips and I guess I need to carry more back duing Nov..hmm..

Another progess is my trading. Now looking at a potential client who want me to trade for him and share profits. And with me going back to my old company , he will be opening an account with me. Well..tats my role anyway as a Sales Trader - to make clients trade. US trading is also progessing nicely as I gets into the rhythem ...small but steady while Sg trading is big but unsteady.

Back in Vietnam, experienced their worst ever flood. My office building was basically surrounded by water and there is not walking out as people was trapped. But I was determined to get to higher land to get a cab home and waddle through knee high water carefully in order to find the kerb to step down and step up. Thinking back , it was quite dangerous as I was carrying my lapstop. If I tripped, I wld be totally drenched with my haversack. Anyway , I managed to scurry home only suffering a small cut on my finger.

Today was a lazy Saturaday. Quite glad that I could sleep till 10.30 am cause usually Im up around 7am. Last week have been waking 6am practically everyday as I need to go office early. Guess Im exhausted as well. The morning breeze today was very nice. Makes me feel like I'm in SG...really can't wait to go back to SG and start living normally again with Dango.

2 more months to go! =)

Taiwanese shows..

There was no good shows on TV so I just flip channels to those that I never switched to before and I came upon those taiwanese funny variety shows...Really reminds me of the times when I just know Dango and often go over her place and we will cuddle and laugh at these stupid funny taiwanes antics... Really missed those times...But I will be back soon...really think I'm dying here...

Seminar day come and gone..

Yippee...was just back from the lecture I gave at the office on a Saturday morning. Was dreading this day from the day I was requested to do a seminar. Anyway , it went very well with a free lunch pizza galore thrown in. I must say that the company have always been very generous with employee welfare.

On the way home today, I was alot of expats family..husband and wife and sometimes with a kid thrown in..going on with their family outing on a weekend. Looks so nice. I was wondering if I have Dango with me, maybe living in vietnam wouldn't be such a dread. It is really not where you are but who you with. Same goes to when going on tour. Makes me miss Dango who is enjoying herself in Bali on her company trip. I will have a company trip to HK in dec too...heee.

Maybe its today rainy weather, makes me abit nostalgic. I thought about the old times when i was younger, seem everything was so nice...tour with family. Maybe I miss my family life ... spending time with sis and mum. Maybe Im really getting old cause I keep missing younger times...oh dear....

Stilfed

Feel like I wake up from the wrong side of the bed this morning. Everything just feel so bleak. Tired of everything I'm doing. Feel that I'm wasting my life while other people are having a great time. Feel so breathless but yet there is no recourse..just ranting I supposed. Don't know what I'm going to do for next year and the next 10 yrs...