Taiwanese shows..

There was no good shows on TV so I just flip channels to those that I never switched to before and I came upon those taiwanese funny variety shows...Really reminds me of the times when I just know Dango and often go over her place and we will cuddle and laugh at these stupid funny taiwanes antics... Really missed those times...But I will be back soon...really think I'm dying here...

Seminar day come and gone..

Yippee...was just back from the lecture I gave at the office on a Saturday morning. Was dreading this day from the day I was requested to do a seminar. Anyway , it went very well with a free lunch pizza galore thrown in. I must say that the company have always been very generous with employee welfare.

On the way home today, I was alot of expats family..husband and wife and sometimes with a kid thrown in..going on with their family outing on a weekend. Looks so nice. I was wondering if I have Dango with me, maybe living in vietnam wouldn't be such a dread. It is really not where you are but who you with. Same goes to when going on tour. Makes me miss Dango who is enjoying herself in Bali on her company trip. I will have a company trip to HK in dec too...heee.

Maybe its today rainy weather, makes me abit nostalgic. I thought about the old times when i was younger, seem everything was so nice...tour with family. Maybe I miss my family life ... spending time with sis and mum. Maybe Im really getting old cause I keep missing younger times...oh dear....

Stilfed

Feel like I wake up from the wrong side of the bed this morning. Everything just feel so bleak. Tired of everything I'm doing. Feel that I'm wasting my life while other people are having a great time. Feel so breathless but yet there is no recourse..just ranting I supposed. Don't know what I'm going to do for next year and the next 10 yrs...

Going back soon...

While walking outside today...I suddenly miss bom bom..ya ..the two boms boms back in sg.. Just miss being with them and playing with them etc etc and cant wait to be back ....yippee..going soon!!

Finally , going back for a break..

Going back sg on Tues for 6 days...finallly after 6 long weeks. It had been tedious this time, really going to go bongkus anytime. Can't wait to spend some good times with dango and fartie.. =)

Really been tired..mentally exhausted about trading. Maybe it was myself that was looking for new ways and end up trouble. Things was fine so what people like to meddle with things that aren't broken?? I dunno...idleness is the devil workshop i supposed. Damn it. Maybe i was too eager to get some fast success.

Workwise is actually getting better compared to the times i just came here as least people is starting to give more recognition and respect.

What a difference a week make....

This weekend felt particularly lethargic...and down..maybe its pms.
Ran so slow in the morning that I felt I was going nowhere. Can't remember when was the last time I encounter the same thing..maybe back in 2005?

Was thinking about checking with boss whether I can go back sg. But the chances that he will prompt is what I'm doing now. Either he will scout around work that need to be done ( which are many messy things) or he will think they no longer need me. I doubt the latter cause they still need someone to oversee the dealing desk portion of the new software but nothing much need to be done. .Its already near Aug..just 3 to 4 more months I will be free, not sure whether I should risk my bonus now. If I go back to sg without bonus or work waiting for me, I think there will be more bickering to come instead of less. Trading was ok..if talking of it as investment, I'm doing well. But not in terms if I want to live off it. It will be passable, but not ideal. *sigh*

I'm tired... not sure exactly what is it... just tired.

Fireworks...

Been back in Vietnam about 1 week...still remember how last Sunday we went to have prata for breakfast then went to petfarm to shop then Bedok to eat...so nice. It was a relatively more pleasant trip this time round. Finally to get to see mini fatty bom bom real life...so cute...especially the sound she made when she ran passed us. Haha...cant wait to play with her again.

Dango mentioned last night there was fireworks and it reminded that must be the NDP rehearsal. However , it was only this morning that i remember how we passed last year NDP period. I still remember we met after work at Marina Sq to watch fireworks and only missed 1 or 2 performances. Unfortunately, this year, I think probably we will missed many since I'm only back 7 Aug. *sigh*... but good thing is that I be back for about 6 days.

Work wise, I think July will be more eventful and maybe my benefactor have finally appeared. I have the possibility of running a small fund myself and if successfully impressed with the results, I will have the bargaining power to request to come back to Sg and still can trade for them. Trading have been relatively stable since I discovered the Map and hope things stay this way.

Busy week...

This week passed by fast. Everyday is wake 6am ,rush for the morning meeting..monitor sg trades. Analyse US trades. Do report. Go prop team meeting. Finish US research. Start SG analysis. Go home, no time for dinner, prepare for US trading. Finish up SG analysis. SLEEP.

This is why I love my weekends jus lazing at home. Sadly these two days haven't been sleeping well. Think its the silk bedsheets and over hyperactivity. Really miss going out with Dango and relaxing. The most is 6 more months to go. Can't wait to see cookie also...v fast 2 more weeks and I'm back in sg again....

Cookieeee

Its the 1st weekend after I came back from Singapore on monday..finally a time for me to catch a breather. So much happening....the markets going crazy; more work to be done in the office etc ...and of course Dango bought COOKIE! She is so adorable when I see her on webcam and cant wait to play with her real life but I think she will be very wary of me.

Its good that Dango now have cookie to entertain her and I think she won't miss me liao and everyday she will be missing cookie at home....*bleah* But the real thing is that now I know why people say long distance relationship is really hard, even with msn or skype , things are still hard cause nothing actually replace face to face conversation and physically togetherness. Many miscommuncation over msn cause one can't see the face or know the tone of words written.
But hopefully things will at least be better or maintain till I get back end of the year..6 more damn mths. Hmmm....too bad that I can't shop with dango for Cookie stuff ...but when I come back , we can bring our pet kid to jalan and patoh..haha....

The reminds me of.....

Watching the celebrity Journals show on Travel and living featuring Marisa Tomei..reminds me so much of Dango : long dark hair, fair fair skin and dark set features....just the type I like. Made me miss her ...miss her antics..miss the way she moves, the way she eats...especially the old times with her long hair...Hmm..guess next time when I go back..her hair will be longer ... =) ~~~

BIG rice cracker...

Saw this a few times but didn't really tempted to buy cause it looks plain to me till a colleague bought and let me try.It was clean and crunch cause its not fried but hot airpoped i think. They eat it with meal dishes sometimes too.

Another long time classic ....

Been sometimes since i posted classic things that you say ( on msn ) that make me laugh.....

Scenario :

Been chatting about my trading and the market going down.....

She says:hmm...... then u better stop playing for a while...
She says:if not i think i will have to cut up moo and meh for us to eat liao..
Finque says:eat wat?
finque says: cottom balls ah?
She says:eat the furs...

My bedside table....

Was just lazing on the bed on a lazy Sun afternoon and with my hp handy , just thought I take a pic of my junky bedside table.

Hmm...my "timing" can't be more "auspicious" hor...

A Wonderful start to a Sunday....

Had a very nice sleep last night...one of the rarer ones cause usually I will wake around 6am due to the bright sun and noise. But I had a very restful sleep last night and only rouse around 9.30am and nice to lie in the bed awhile before I head our for a run. Weather was nice too..not too sunny and not raining cause it has been raining the whole day yesterday.
The greatest part is that I fried bacon for breakfast...heavenly smell. Glad I changed my mind about cooking tastless mifen again. The next best thing is to watch my favourite show on Travel & Living introducing Perth while having my nice breakfast and siping iced coffee. Hmm... I didn't know Perth suburban actually had some very good beach. Nice...will make our way there...will enjoy the long drive with Dango... Hmm..miss Dango particularly this weekend though...hmmmm

Need to clear my jagged thoughts....

Finally Friday is here. It is so sad to live this way to keep looking forward to weekends...alone.

Been thru a traumatic day..cant imagine the panic that kept gripping me today from night till lunch till end. And I simply don't understand the people here.. It is so messed up..maybe only for me. Cause I like things to be predictable and certain.

But there are nice people here....but I am just not in the mood for anything but to get my trading on track. It is right in concept but needs fine tuning execution wise. I see people and I wonder why I can't enjoy life as they do. .,...

Miss dango...but she is out dating The Phantom. Hmmm....

Cooling day ..surprising

Been back since weds after spending 1 week with Dango...Time really flies after last friday..weekend just zoom by...everyday with Dango was great...had all my fave food while i was back ...think i gained a few pounds.

Sentosa was ok and the Luge was fun cause I WIN DANGO...haha...even when I stopped to wait for her, I STILL win her. *bleh*


Office was as dreadful as before..but at least I make it to another week.
Good old weekend..lucky for me today was a cooling day as it rained abit in the morning...but before that it was as scorching as ever when I did my run.

Hmm...watch a nice show on tv and slowing doing my analysis...peace.

ELLE

Just read an article in ELLE May copy called "Skinny Fat" and its says when the fats began to form at your waist and cause you to have a thick waist is because you are stressed. No wonder I have a pot belly although I'm generally slender. It says for normal weight gain, fats will go to the bum and arms but for me, its always the belly. And to make things worse, when stressed, people ( me included) tends to go for fatty food which made things worse. And the solution, to chill out. Yes, to simply relax. No wonder when I'm more relaxed, I tend to eat less of those snacks at night. Hmmmmm.....

Then, it says laughing , sleep , hugging and kissing will reduce stress...hmm...hvn't had much of those since I was here. Hmmmmmmmm....no wonder Dango also complains that she seem to be have thicker waist..we are suffering the same symptoms. With Dango initally....was relaxed no matter what...but stress builds up when one grows older it seems....Hmm...have to think of ways to chill out.

A cafe called Peaches

In a cafe near my apt called Peaches. Heard that it was opened by a Singaporean and it sells Chilli crab. A set of Chilli crab with watermelon juice is only $5 SGD. Maybe I will try it later.

Was intending to have a quiet day at home till my landlord says he is coming home with some friends to cook. Didn't feel very comfortable so I came out but to see them talking so lively in the living room, bitching about another friend of theirs and little things make me long for such gathering. I have almost forgottern how its like to hang out with people. There are ABC gal and an chinese australian guy. They looked cool people with foreign accents and all and somehow I feel I can't fit into them. Been feeling this way since I arrived here. Last night dinner with the huge bunch of people are the same. There are singaporeans, americans, and many viet kieus but to me its more like business networking. I just feel that I might not have change my mindset to fit into the upper class living here. Actually if work is somehow to my liking as well as leave me alone to do my things, the living here is actually good when you are an expats. That is what i suspect what draws those expats here. *sigh* There are really many opportunities here cause things are quite lacking in terms of talented skills. I could easy set up a website doing stocks..if not you have the right people. The locals do not have the skills which is where the viet kieus come into the picture. Its a slow process. To live here and use their cheap resources is good, to work with them is another thing.

Sometimes I feel so doomed. Like why can't I like other people. I seem to avoid people. To totally shut them out. I was thinking was I always like this? In secondary school? In JC? I seem to be suddenly so withdrawn.. Is it normal that I don't feel the need to be in the company of people? Or is it at my age , its norm to not being able to make friends easily. Or maybe I so used to be alone that I'm more happy being alone. But yet on 1 hand, I know its not good but maybe I have lost the skills to talk with people. Or maybe its the price to pay to be able to strike gold. With my trading, it really enables me to make a very good living without depending on anyone at all. Maybe my personality seeks out a vocation like trading or is it trading that make me a hermit...hmmmm...

THE SAHARA DESERT

This is taken on my way back. See those tall buildings? My apt is ard there...that's how far I walked from this afternoon under the scorching sun. Lucky I waited till sun set to walk back or else I think I will be cooked halfway on the highway back.

Lazy sweaty saturaday.....

Woke up and had my run as usual....it was nice to finally have a nice cup of coffee while watching Tavel & Living introducing Best Beaches... *daydream* Then while channel surfing, a movie caught my eye and lucky I continue watching as its the movie CASINO..it was good..capitavate me that I delay going out of the house to the cafe even though it is damn hot in the apt. Got a msg that I will be alone till night anyway, so no hurry to go to the internet cafe. The show is kind of like showing how a mafia group who actually have a good thing going with so much money coming in but everything just fall apart when greed and idlness come into the picture. I was more interested in how the mafia boss treated his wife , a ex hooker so nice with so much money and jewelleries but still she want to hang around another useless man. Hmm...

I heard there was a Highland coffee at dist 7 where I lived and I was curious to where is it as it could save me from going downtown everytime. So I asked around and people point me to a direction, giving me the impression that its not far. Yeah right, I am in that cafe right now and I felt I just cross the SAHARA DESERT! Really...I think they feel its very near cause they are all refering to scootering. Hmm..anyway, I thought the cafe will be deserted since on the way I don't see many people but I'm wrong. Its so strange that people will find their way to civilizationh some how some way. It is not as crowded as in the downtown where I have to wait for a table. Well, like me, I think many people would kill for some airconditioning.

I was thinking that exactly a week ago, I was still with Dango ...and we had breakfast at Boon Keng ..carrot cake and chwee kueh...hmm..so fast...but in another 10 days, I'm going back again. But I worried that after April, it might not feel as fast. Haiz...

Think I will take my super slow speed and do my things...