Monday, December 25, 2006

In office on Christmas day

Yup, in office right now.. damn the Japanese market.
Slept late last night at Dango place and woke 6am to go home and ran and came to work. Quite a long weekend at Dango's place...and next weekend will even be longer: Friday till Tues! Dango was so excited about this that she almost can't sleep. keke.

This Christmas is considered quiet to me...no hefty celebrations, just cozy enjoyment ...good in a way bah. Partying times are over for me I guess...

Love the gift Dango got for me for Christmas thought it caught me by surprise.... -M***-

Think my brain already is thinking in pausal mode.. Think later I will be quite stoned...hmm...

Friday, December 22, 2006

Happiness....

Came across an article on Happiness and how to measure it... It try to link happiness with capitalism and I suddenly stuck an concept :

They say money don't bring you happiness...but I think that's not true...Money can get things that bring you happiness...just that it might not last. And they also missed out the fact that money can indirectly bring you unhappiness...How? The very happiness that money brought you will bring about your unhappiness as well...A paradox indeed.

Let's say you started off poor.. on a scale of 1 to 10 of the possessions you own, you rank 2. You don't have to lose alot to get back to the rank of 1. And assume losing that 1 point will already be enough to make one unhappy. Then as you start to work and improve your life, your rank upgrade to 5 cause you are gathering more possessions to make you happy...each point upgrade you make, made you happier cause you achieved something but that happiness don't last so you look to make more points. NOW think.. from rank 5, you fell to rank 3 , its a difference of 2 pts. That 2 pts lost certainly caused much more misery than if you were to drop from rank 2 to rank 1 ( minus 1 pt). But will that person still think at least I'm rank 3, which is better than rank 2 , 3 years ago? NO...he will think he is 2 pts backward from rank 5. It's like an person appetite is stretched as he eats more and more and needs more and more to feel satisfied. And with his appetite bigger, a little lack of food will means more anxiety to him.

Hence, as one aim to get more & more out of life...in terms of wealth and possessions, one is being made more vulnerable to unhappiness. Maybe that's why there are more unhappy people around as the society get more afluence. They have learned to tie happiness with possessions and the only way they can be made more happy is to have more possessions. But according with the law of dimishing return, they need more and more possessions to give them a similar degree of happiness compared to the past.

Conclusion? The rituals of possessions gathering is futile, as the ultimate end is more unhappiness. So how to maintain happiness? To me, I feel maybe is to live simply.. in this way, one do not need alot to feel happy. A simple movie and dinner outing will bring much happiness if done occassionally. Imagine if you do this every weekend, it will be such a joykill.
As such, human being themselves need to control their urge to repeat rituals that make them happy too often.... in order to prolong that happiness that ritual brings. Another paradox.

Just imagine having sex everyday... who can take it.. haha.. I guess it boils down to moderation to everything in life , doesn't it?

Tuesday, December 19, 2006

Think Back.......

Raining days seem to make me so nostalgic....

Was on the bus today when I suddenly think back to when we just get to know each other...
With lately so much r/s things happening around us...it makes me think how we got together...
And certain things reminded why I was attacted to you.. I always said you are different...now I rememeber the difference and why I like you.

I like you cause you are simple, pure , honest.
I like the fact that you are not the partying sort.
I like that you don't change your mind easily and you don't cave in to pressure
I hate deceptions, I hate inconsistancy, I hate illogical talk.
I hate people that change their views or opinions but yet can't explain the reason.
All these you are not.
And not forgetting your cuteness helped also. =P


As much as you make me want to pull out my hair at times, I still adore you very much.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Peep Peep...

Just thought of a something fuuny that happened last night since you mentioned that there was no joke in my last post:

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Background : Watching last night chinese show ..wat " flying daggers etc etc" where the male actor ( taka something) is peeping at Zhang ziyi while she took a bath.


Dango : (refering to show) Will you peep at me while I take a bath?

Me : Yes... (expecting a whack)

Dango : (smile sheepishly, better known as "Arm Qhio")

Me : You happy that I want to peep at you ah?!?

Dango : Heeeeeeee (nod nod)

Me : (- __ - """) !! *PENGZ*

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Haha...So adorable!

Finally a good rest..

Haven't been sleeping well till last night after I had a muscle relaxant pill...slept like a log. Woke up body not feeling sore but don't think my arm is well yet...still can feel weak if too much movement.....too much action over the weekend liao ; P

ANYWAY...thats not the reason I blogging now. The reason is that during my morning run today, I suddenly missed you alot ; I suddenly felt very sorry if I had behaved mean to you over the weekend due to all sort of reasons. It felt like although we have our differences , quiet fuming , misunderstandings etc , I still very much love to be with you.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Terribly SLEEPY ...........

Went to party last night and slept at 1.30 am and wake at 6 am .... I'm really typing with my nose now..... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Anyway TGIF... tml no need to return car so can sleep late late tml.... yay....

Wanted to write about some events that happened on my trip to vietnam. They made me laugh when I think back...haha...
It was the first night of the trip at the "loc cok" hotel with no toliet door....we promised we won't peek at each other and I sticked to my promise.. not that I not interested but because I don't want to be peeped at also...keke... but too bad Dango can't stand the hotel towels and preferred her own... =P

During the night while sleeping, I was already annoyed by the noisy aircon and worse when I felt that I got no space to sleep like that because Dango was sleeping in a weird position - with her butt protruding out and taking up much space! Hmph! After much reluctance to wake her...I mumble to her to move over abit which she promptly did so and she fell asleep again. The next morning, while nuaring on the bed ( because we waked too early due to the 1) I can't sleep well, and 2) I look at the wrong hp time to wake up) , we talked and I ask her why her position so weird wan..then she said something like this " oh...hmm...cause I abit scare....so I wanna make sure you are around and as I was too tired, I used my butt to "keep in contact' with you"
That explains why her butt was protruding out and keep moving closer and touching me!! I laughed until buay tahan because it was so cute! So Rooster as I was saying....chicken backside!!

Monday, December 11, 2006

Back to work....

Finally back to work after almost 2 weeks of break...hmm...so sleepy ....and at least I finished some work in the morning ..so now got abit of time ..just feel like blogging although not sure what I wanted to write yet.

Trip to vietnam was ok..not terrible , but not fanastic either..Think we allocated abit too much time there thouggh we had some new experience like eating their local chao kway tiao from the street side stall n their ice cream... very interesting. SQ flights are entertaining as usual..enjoyable food.

Then I like feel werid ...think routine disruption...hmm...or PMS.... hmm...

Friday, December 01, 2006

Finally ...time to blog...

Last 1 week have been mind boggling hectic...not with physical stuff but alot of mential thinking and preparation. The Vietnam trip was settled within 2 days..and within these 2 days we gotta think about the cost, the timing , booking of hotels as well as planning the itinery. I have to go down and collect the tickets, go clinic for blood test so that result will be out next week. Lucky Dong cant be changed outside Vietnam, so we only be doing money changing over there at airport.

Still, I have to prepare myself for the interview by reading up vietnam stock exhange information..but hmm.... I think the hard questions are not techical but rather on my views of my role...which is still abit blur to me...well, let me improvise when the time comes.

Initally when I try to find information about touring Ho Chi Minh, I wasn't impressed and was worried that I have planned for too many days, but now, I'm not optimistic about the trip...Think it is going to be an adventure... not those comfort type of holiday but to open eyes and get abit rugged...alot of river rides in marshland for the day trip. These is something we never done together cause in our trip to japan, although free n easy, it was in an advanced country. I'm quite sure Dango is up for it.. cause she been thru worse places...but Im not sure about myself. At least I'm prepared for it mentally la.... To whet some appetite, I can't wait to eat vietnamese food...the pho, sticky rice cakes, seafood, Elephant Ear fish ( dunno wat is it but they say its a specialty), spring rolls etc..yum yum....



Everything seem unbelievable still...perhaps because it was kinda rush... my bags are packed and I concentrate on keeping them light but yet a remark by mum" ....u going for 6 days rite? Its not tat short leh..." made me think whether did i underpacked...hmmm.... I better cross check with Dango tonite...

Well, hope to get some pictures...(oh yah, this remind me of the camera)...and to post them up once we are back!

Monday, November 27, 2006

Oohhh.....picture forgotten...



Suddenly got prompted to go through my pics in my pc for the KL pics we took last christmas and saw this pic.....NICE!! Look at those eyelashes! Didnt know u used so much mascara then..keke.... Wonderful picture for promoting Ice Sprite hor... hahahahah ... Gonna get whacked for this ....but as you already know, I have this on my forehead : " BEAT ME......if you can..."

XPPPP

Friday, November 24, 2006

Tired but still worth the trouble......

Eyes can hardly be opened..but I feel like logging now how I feel cause it may be gone soon enough....

Feel like things finally take a turn for the better now....Maybe cause I have finally settled on a stategry that I'm happy with and everything seems to be humming along just fine...Maybe this feeling of contentment is only temporary but at least I feel good now... as well I'm positive about things that is happening or going to happen...for both of us =)

Thursday, November 16, 2006

Day Dreaming ...

Listening to the radio while walking to my office, I heard a song with lyrics " ...All I wana do is be with you....". It was such a light hearted song that it made me imagine that I'm on some sunny sandy beach with you... It was so nice....the holiday mood...beach, sun, sand..... ahhhh

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

An unexpected answer...

An scenario out of last night :

Me : Are we watching a dvd movie tonite?
Dango : Nope....
Me: Hmm...then we watch this variety show la...
Dango : Yup....
Me: Then after this show, we watched the Super Model tape rite...?
Dango : Yup....
Me : Err....(thinking still got time to kill) then after that we do what ??
Dango : ( looks thoughtful) Hmm... then we make out make out abit la! ( in a matter of fact tone)

I burst out laughing non-stop because I never thought you could say such things...

And I missed my bi weekly brow plucking sessions at Dango's place.. Hmph... =(

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Another day on leave

Ahh....another day at home..relaxing..sipping Japanese milk coffee dango bought me. Nice nice...milky though. Anyway, send dango to work as usual albeit too early cause thought I need to return car early.. hmph.

Ran in the morning as usual and proceed to do my things.. gd news is that my US paper account is ready and I spent some time keying in my overnight test trades. Tml I shall see how good is the system..

Kinda bored now...hmm...maybe I should watch a dvd or maybe I should nap awhile...

Actually what I think I want to say is that I appreciate that you have been patient with me when I'm have weird mood swings. Don't take it too seriously as I will be fine after awhile when I sort out whats troubling me..

I know you always like me to stay with you but I only realised how much when I saw this smile ( ^ ______________________^) everytime you wake and see me.

M***

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

Nong Nong weekend!

Had quite a long weekend.... saw each other everyday from last friday till today Weds as I'm on leave today! haha... Dango spent the 1st night at my place on monday and I spent the night at her plc on tues then send her to work this morning..keke...so nice...never had such mornings before. In the car when driving home, blasting nice music..planning my day. Went running after I reached home and I'm having my favourite cup of tea w ginger and watching my markets and doing my things....at such leisurely pace. Ahhhhh....so nice... I want my life to be like this. keke. Later I'm going to read papers slowly..then..nuar on the bed...dye my hair..oh oh...burn songs into cdroms .. bummer, no buy cd album yet,hmm...nowhere to keep...nevermind, I burn ..haha.. I'm going to have a few more of such days ahead...yay yay yay...and hopefully, next year , I can do this permanently! wahahahahah ..

Then from coming Friday , another nong nong weekend again as I'm on leave (yup again!) and Dango got "leave" approved to stay my place again on friday night , then sat and sun I again be a "overstayer" at Dango's palce cause I will be on leave again ! Ha..then I can be dango's chauffaur again next monday. Then *repeat* this sequence a few more times till dec....yay yay!

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Girly??




You Are 16% Girly



Um... you're a guy, right? If not, you're the most boyish girl in the world.

And for you, that's probably the ultimate compliment.

Monday, October 16, 2006

This reminds me of....

Finally a monday , so tired that I watch the 7pm korean show while eating my dinner. It was quite funny at times the "princess" behavior that it reminds me of you...haha....naive and innocent...... teasing you is fun fun fun cause your cute expressions delights me. =PPP m***

Monday, October 02, 2006

What A Predicament...

Long time since I blog cause have been busy ...thinking?
Much have happened and everything seem so sudden.... and now I know how it feels to be so caught in between.

In some way, it is indeed an opportunity to be able to relocate overseas to work for awhile... but yet I can't imagine leaving you behind. Maybe it's because we are always together over the weekends. It is not just missing you but it's the spending of time together that is irreplaceable; a simple hug; a simple touch; a simple glance. Maybe I tear cause I know if I go, I can't take all these with me.

It will be ideal if we can at least spend sometime together in our own world in a foreign place. Living a life together. It's not impossible. What's 2 -3 years in a span of the rest of our lives. It's an adventure I would think. A friend say things can work out if both compromise, maybe travel abit more but no matter what, a commitment is needed from both party in order to keep the relationship.

But now, we shall see how things pan itself out... Where there is a will, there is a way.

Friday, September 22, 2006

Friday Friday!

This week is not considered long but I do feel abit exhausted by now hence looking forward to the weekend. Today as usual , aim to come early for client trades hence I took the train. And while on the train , I suddenly thought of something and smile to myself.

I remember the times when I met dango weekday at bishan Junction 8, after her school. Each time she sees me, she will have an expressionless face and just motion me over. If I'm not wrong, I think we were kinda together then already.. but still, its her usual behaviour. And what made me smile is when I compared then and now. Last Sunday, you might not think I noticed but I was surprised when I recieved not 1 , but 2 pecks on the cheeks in the car. With 1 peck even when we were outside your place! Why such surprise? Cause I still remember the " No kisses other than in the room, not even in the car" rule. So what other people take for granted is actually quite precious to me. All these made me remember it wasn't easy at all for me to get thru to you... and I'm glad I did persist.

M***

Monday, September 18, 2006

Tips for running.....

..... in a mice infested park :

1) Keep to the middle of the path.
Reason : you have time to react the moment you see a mouse trying to scurry into the walk path.


Hmm.. this weekend was well spent cause we manage to tick off some items on the "To-do" list.
And I think the economy is doing well, everywhere was flooded with shoppers and more shoppers... hmm..we better start to think of some activities in less crowded places.

Darn it...seng siong will be sure crowded.

Friday, September 15, 2006

Hmm....weird day ahead

So strange today when I went running. On the way to the park, I saw many cats sitting around the roadside, the most comical is one which sit right on the rider seat of a stationery Harley Davidson! Can you imagine how funny that was? It was sitting in a very upright and alert and beautiful position somemore. This is not all, while in the park, I saw not 1 mouse, not 2 but 3!! They all looked the same and if not I see them at different section of the park, I would think they are the same. The 3rd one really nearly langa into me and really made me jumped! All these are so unusual that it makes me feel something is in the air.... Hmm....