Sicky weekend

Not so good a weekend cause not only Dango felt worse on friday, I also kena the flu bug... humbug!

*Sniff Sniff* Today at work was like trying to breath thru a straw...stuffocating...but strangely enough, just as the day is ending, my nose cleared...as if it knows that it is going home soon. Ha...

It's sad to see Dango coughing so much that she can't sleep, but I'm glad that dango is feeling better today. Hope that the coming week, we can go patoh as planned instead of staying in most of the time. But actually on looking back, it wasn't bad too..just lazing and sleeping and with Dango hopping down the stairs every 30mins to make sure I'm covered with 2 blankets....*sweat sweat*

Today , my colleague reminded me that its going to be another 5 more days before I say sayora to them all and she will missed me...I can understand how she feels cause I would feel abandoned also if I were her....as the only young female there.

Hm...was shopping with Dango over the weekend for some necessities but I doubt I cover most things..cause today I feel I should bring alot of package soups there to make for dinner as I think I quite a soupy person. Then there are those thoughts that I do not want to think about. Actually I don't like to be reminded that I'm going to Vietnam. To me, its an action that I do not want to spend thoughts on...but just do it. I like to keep my thoughts on the times that I will be meeting Dango and the trip to Great Barrier Reef.... those are the thoughts that is going to keep me sane while I'm there alone. And I will keep my mind on work, my trades, chatting with Dango and taking care of myself and not on the surrounding there cause I don't like the surrounding. I like to think that I'm just going to Tuas island to work and I am just going to focus on what's ahead and mute out all the discomfort that I know is going to hit me. For a start, I'm booked to stay in a hotel for 2 weeks that have history that stretch back to the 70s. Bummer.. and what will I do? I will try to get an apartment by the 3rd day by hook or by crook!

Poor Dango

Know that I haven't been blogging for some time and it is not that I got nothing to write but more of like no time. Settled more of the administrative things for moving over to Vietnam but left alot of packing to do I guess..hmm...

Poor Dango, never see her so sick before...I think she also never been so sick in her whole life before...* Hugz* Guess cause she is hardly sick .... Hope she get well soon then we can go "Patoh". It was so cute that day when she said when she walked pass "Bee Cheng Hiang" with the smell so nice till all the Bah Kwa seem to be waving to her...Hilarious! Especially with her action of waving ...as if so real like that!

Long weekend.....

Initally planned to go sentosa on friday when I took leave but think luckily we decide to go Jurong swimming complex cause 1stly we forgot to bring "Ah John" - dango's swimming ball out...it's no fun without ah john bobbing up and down in the sea. Anyway , had a good time at jurong cause there was practially no people due to the rainy day and it's a friday! haha...we were freezing at times and seeking shelter on and off..but nonetheless, it was fun in the lazy river and in the wave pool. Went for Fish head steamboat for the 1st time and unfortunately I don't feel well if not my appetite will be better .. =<

Hm..tendered on Thursday and the bosses instead offer that I relocate to Sydney because of the new office there. Was very surprised cause I never expected that...but both parties retreat to think over the weekend. I doubt anything of what they say will come to fruitation within 1 mth, so to me, 1 bird in hand is better than 2 in the bush. Moreover, I doubt they can match the vietnam offer in terms of renumeration. Well..we shall see...this career affair of mine seem to have twisthere and twist there...oh...I think our IT guy also just tender today...

Long weekend....

Last weekend wasn't long...but the coming weekend is going to be! ^ _^ Will be planning to go sentosa and nuar then weekend nuar somemore?? hmm....better plan somethings...Got a feeling that I have lots to do ...but it's like everything hinges on something else...

Caught Pan's Labyrinth last weekend, and it was such a amazing show..griping! Me and Dango blur blur sit inside the cinema and thought we entered the wrong cinema when the show started in Spanish with English subtitles because we all along thought it was in English and was abit disappointed. Nonetheless, it was a great movie but Dango got her eyes behind my shoulder most of the time. And to think she loves horror movie ...but yet can't stand grossness. I'm quite the opposite I guess..

Was thinking alot over the weekend...hmm...not sure why..but it's more like pondering about life.... can't really remember it now...but will write it down if melacholy strikes again.

Fate have spoken , what more can I say....

They have counter-offered me more than I asked for....pre-empting any effort of mine to find excuses within myself not to go Vietnam. Fate have spoken and I know it's better to go with the flow and be optimistic because any resistance is going to be futile. I know it is for the better and I'm indeed optimistic although I can't say why.

It's not that I did not want to tell you sooner but its cause I do not want you to fret early.
* Hugz *

Harmony Combination

Read a "Ba Zi" book in a bookstore today , and it was mostly very deep jargons hence I was just flipping thru and something caught my attention. It mentioned 6 harmony combinations of chinese signs and guess wat?! Dragon and Rooster is one of them! Moreover Dragon + Rooster = Metal which I don't really know what it mean either..but going by that logic , I reckon fire dragon + metal rooster shld be equal fire-like metal which should be GOLD!!! hahaha! Anyway, that's my theory =P

Yesterday was really a super sway day for me. Morning missed a bus, kena knocked by people on bus. Then go home also just missed the bus, reach hme found out car is not available hence cannot go Dango's place as planned . Then house blacked out. Fed up. Quickly just packed my stuff and go over Dango place by train to stay the night. Glad I did =)

1st post of 2007....

I wish I could be joyous....but I'm in the office now with slight fever and a blocked nose , a bad cough... Can't believe after 5 days eating doc's med, I'm still like this. Spent the last 5 days at my little Dango's place the whole time... Even though we didn't party nor did exceptional stuff plus I'm so sick....it was 5 days of good fun where we nuar together, had splendid sushi ( I'm impressed with our speed of eating...) , went to old haunts to have gd food, did some 'clearing" of many dvds pending to be watched (finally!). Ya, of cos we catched the fireworks on 31dec... a yearly ritual , haha..

What I most miss during this time? Kissing Dango.. didn't wana take e risk to spread the flu bug to her. Ha, although kissing was off limit...it doesn't mean I'm down and out.. sweating out in bed is a good way to lower down the fever it seems...kekekeke

I know I haven't been writing for sometime. It's not I don't have anything to write..but the stuff that was happening , I felt, wasn't that pleasant...especially it will remind me of the impending sad things that might be happening. Well, I'm offered a job to relocate to Vietnam to work.. Good pay, expatriate lifestyle, gd job prospect. Nothing bad about it , except that Dango can't come with me. That made me half- hearted to whether to accept anot...and I tempted fate. Asked for more renumeration and if they refused, I will have a reason not to go. And if they agree, then I'm fated to go. Still waiting for answer...we shall see....

In office on Christmas day

Yup, in office right now.. damn the Japanese market.
Slept late last night at Dango place and woke 6am to go home and ran and came to work. Quite a long weekend at Dango's place...and next weekend will even be longer: Friday till Tues! Dango was so excited about this that she almost can't sleep. keke.

This Christmas is considered quiet to me...no hefty celebrations, just cozy enjoyment ...good in a way bah. Partying times are over for me I guess...

Love the gift Dango got for me for Christmas thought it caught me by surprise.... -M***-

Think my brain already is thinking in pausal mode.. Think later I will be quite stoned...hmm...

Happiness....

Came across an article on Happiness and how to measure it... It try to link happiness with capitalism and I suddenly stuck an concept :

They say money don't bring you happiness...but I think that's not true...Money can get things that bring you happiness...just that it might not last. And they also missed out the fact that money can indirectly bring you unhappiness...How? The very happiness that money brought you will bring about your unhappiness as well...A paradox indeed.

Let's say you started off poor.. on a scale of 1 to 10 of the possessions you own, you rank 2. You don't have to lose alot to get back to the rank of 1. And assume losing that 1 point will already be enough to make one unhappy. Then as you start to work and improve your life, your rank upgrade to 5 cause you are gathering more possessions to make you happy...each point upgrade you make, made you happier cause you achieved something but that happiness don't last so you look to make more points. NOW think.. from rank 5, you fell to rank 3 , its a difference of 2 pts. That 2 pts lost certainly caused much more misery than if you were to drop from rank 2 to rank 1 ( minus 1 pt). But will that person still think at least I'm rank 3, which is better than rank 2 , 3 years ago? NO...he will think he is 2 pts backward from rank 5. It's like an person appetite is stretched as he eats more and more and needs more and more to feel satisfied. And with his appetite bigger, a little lack of food will means more anxiety to him.

Hence, as one aim to get more & more out of life...in terms of wealth and possessions, one is being made more vulnerable to unhappiness. Maybe that's why there are more unhappy people around as the society get more afluence. They have learned to tie happiness with possessions and the only way they can be made more happy is to have more possessions. But according with the law of dimishing return, they need more and more possessions to give them a similar degree of happiness compared to the past.

Conclusion? The rituals of possessions gathering is futile, as the ultimate end is more unhappiness. So how to maintain happiness? To me, I feel maybe is to live simply.. in this way, one do not need alot to feel happy. A simple movie and dinner outing will bring much happiness if done occassionally. Imagine if you do this every weekend, it will be such a joykill.
As such, human being themselves need to control their urge to repeat rituals that make them happy too often.... in order to prolong that happiness that ritual brings. Another paradox.

Just imagine having sex everyday... who can take it.. haha.. I guess it boils down to moderation to everything in life , doesn't it?

Think Back.......

Raining days seem to make me so nostalgic....

Was on the bus today when I suddenly think back to when we just get to know each other...
With lately so much r/s things happening around us...it makes me think how we got together...
And certain things reminded why I was attacted to you.. I always said you are different...now I rememeber the difference and why I like you.

I like you cause you are simple, pure , honest.
I like the fact that you are not the partying sort.
I like that you don't change your mind easily and you don't cave in to pressure
I hate deceptions, I hate inconsistancy, I hate illogical talk.
I hate people that change their views or opinions but yet can't explain the reason.
All these you are not.
And not forgetting your cuteness helped also. =P


As much as you make me want to pull out my hair at times, I still adore you very much.

Peep Peep...

Just thought of a something fuuny that happened last night since you mentioned that there was no joke in my last post:

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Background : Watching last night chinese show ..wat " flying daggers etc etc" where the male actor ( taka something) is peeping at Zhang ziyi while she took a bath.


Dango : (refering to show) Will you peep at me while I take a bath?

Me : Yes... (expecting a whack)

Dango : (smile sheepishly, better known as "Arm Qhio")

Me : You happy that I want to peep at you ah?!?

Dango : Heeeeeeee (nod nod)

Me : (- __ - """) !! *PENGZ*

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Haha...So adorable!

Finally a good rest..

Haven't been sleeping well till last night after I had a muscle relaxant pill...slept like a log. Woke up body not feeling sore but don't think my arm is well yet...still can feel weak if too much movement.....too much action over the weekend liao ; P

ANYWAY...thats not the reason I blogging now. The reason is that during my morning run today, I suddenly missed you alot ; I suddenly felt very sorry if I had behaved mean to you over the weekend due to all sort of reasons. It felt like although we have our differences , quiet fuming , misunderstandings etc , I still very much love to be with you.

Terribly SLEEPY ...........

Went to party last night and slept at 1.30 am and wake at 6 am .... I'm really typing with my nose now..... Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Anyway TGIF... tml no need to return car so can sleep late late tml.... yay....

Wanted to write about some events that happened on my trip to vietnam. They made me laugh when I think back...haha...
It was the first night of the trip at the "loc cok" hotel with no toliet door....we promised we won't peek at each other and I sticked to my promise.. not that I not interested but because I don't want to be peeped at also...keke... but too bad Dango can't stand the hotel towels and preferred her own... =P

During the night while sleeping, I was already annoyed by the noisy aircon and worse when I felt that I got no space to sleep like that because Dango was sleeping in a weird position - with her butt protruding out and taking up much space! Hmph! After much reluctance to wake her...I mumble to her to move over abit which she promptly did so and she fell asleep again. The next morning, while nuaring on the bed ( because we waked too early due to the 1) I can't sleep well, and 2) I look at the wrong hp time to wake up) , we talked and I ask her why her position so weird wan..then she said something like this " oh...hmm...cause I abit scare....so I wanna make sure you are around and as I was too tired, I used my butt to "keep in contact' with you"
That explains why her butt was protruding out and keep moving closer and touching me!! I laughed until buay tahan because it was so cute! So Rooster as I was saying....chicken backside!!

Back to work....

Finally back to work after almost 2 weeks of break...hmm...so sleepy ....and at least I finished some work in the morning ..so now got abit of time ..just feel like blogging although not sure what I wanted to write yet.

Trip to vietnam was ok..not terrible , but not fanastic either..Think we allocated abit too much time there thouggh we had some new experience like eating their local chao kway tiao from the street side stall n their ice cream... very interesting. SQ flights are entertaining as usual..enjoyable food.

Then I like feel werid ...think routine disruption...hmm...or PMS.... hmm...

Finally ...time to blog...

Last 1 week have been mind boggling hectic...not with physical stuff but alot of mential thinking and preparation. The Vietnam trip was settled within 2 days..and within these 2 days we gotta think about the cost, the timing , booking of hotels as well as planning the itinery. I have to go down and collect the tickets, go clinic for blood test so that result will be out next week. Lucky Dong cant be changed outside Vietnam, so we only be doing money changing over there at airport.

Still, I have to prepare myself for the interview by reading up vietnam stock exhange information..but hmm.... I think the hard questions are not techical but rather on my views of my role...which is still abit blur to me...well, let me improvise when the time comes.

Initally when I try to find information about touring Ho Chi Minh, I wasn't impressed and was worried that I have planned for too many days, but now, I'm not optimistic about the trip...Think it is going to be an adventure... not those comfort type of holiday but to open eyes and get abit rugged...alot of river rides in marshland for the day trip. These is something we never done together cause in our trip to japan, although free n easy, it was in an advanced country. I'm quite sure Dango is up for it.. cause she been thru worse places...but Im not sure about myself. At least I'm prepared for it mentally la.... To whet some appetite, I can't wait to eat vietnamese food...the pho, sticky rice cakes, seafood, Elephant Ear fish ( dunno wat is it but they say its a specialty), spring rolls etc..yum yum....



Everything seem unbelievable still...perhaps because it was kinda rush... my bags are packed and I concentrate on keeping them light but yet a remark by mum" ....u going for 6 days rite? Its not tat short leh..." made me think whether did i underpacked...hmmm.... I better cross check with Dango tonite...

Well, hope to get some pictures...(oh yah, this remind me of the camera)...and to post them up once we are back!

Oohhh.....picture forgotten...

Suddenly got prompted to go through my pics in my pc for the KL pics we took last christmas and saw this pic.....NICE!! Look at those eyelashes! Didnt know u used so much mascara then..keke.... Wonderful picture for promoting Ice Sprite hor... hahahahah ... Gonna get whacked for this ....but as you already know, I have this on my forehead : " BEAT ME......if you can..."

XPPPP

Tired but still worth the trouble......

Eyes can hardly be opened..but I feel like logging now how I feel cause it may be gone soon enough....

Feel like things finally take a turn for the better now....Maybe cause I have finally settled on a stategry that I'm happy with and everything seems to be humming along just fine...Maybe this feeling of contentment is only temporary but at least I feel good now... as well I'm positive about things that is happening or going to happen...for both of us =)

Day Dreaming ...

Listening to the radio while walking to my office, I heard a song with lyrics " ...All I wana do is be with you....". It was such a light hearted song that it made me imagine that I'm on some sunny sandy beach with you... It was so nice....the holiday mood...beach, sun, sand..... ahhhh

An unexpected answer...

An scenario out of last night :

Me : Are we watching a dvd movie tonite?
Dango : Nope....
Me: Hmm...then we watch this variety show la...
Dango : Yup....
Me: Then after this show, we watched the Super Model tape rite...?
Dango : Yup....
Me : Err....(thinking still got time to kill) then after that we do what ??
Dango : ( looks thoughtful) Hmm... then we make out make out abit la! ( in a matter of fact tone)

I burst out laughing non-stop because I never thought you could say such things...

And I missed my bi weekly brow plucking sessions at Dango's place.. Hmph... =(

Another day on leave

Ahh....another day at home..relaxing..sipping Japanese milk coffee dango bought me. Nice nice...milky though. Anyway, send dango to work as usual albeit too early cause thought I need to return car early.. hmph.

Ran in the morning as usual and proceed to do my things.. gd news is that my US paper account is ready and I spent some time keying in my overnight test trades. Tml I shall see how good is the system..

Kinda bored now...hmm...maybe I should watch a dvd or maybe I should nap awhile...

Actually what I think I want to say is that I appreciate that you have been patient with me when I'm have weird mood swings. Don't take it too seriously as I will be fine after awhile when I sort out whats troubling me..

I know you always like me to stay with you but I only realised how much when I saw this smile ( ^ ______________________^) everytime you wake and see me.

M***